Mother’s Day is always a bittersweet day for me. I bear a burden in my heart for women who want to have children but can’t. I know there are many women who fit in this category and I want to say I love each and every one of you. I did have two children one of which I lost last May when he was 35 years old. Before my two children were born, I had two miscarriages. I remember watching other young mothers holding their babies and playing with their children and, I admit, I would throw a pity party for myself. I was angry, hurt, and bitter because my children weren’t with me.
I got so tired of the well meaning friends and family that would tell me, “It is God’s will.” What, God’s will—what does that mean? I am not good enough to have children? God doesn’t trust me with children? Sometimes I would hear, “It’s for the best.” Whose best? Not my best, I want to have a child!
So to every woman that wants to have children, remember, God is watching over you and He knows your heart. I will not throw clichés or platitudes out at you. I am praying for you that you find the peace you seek and deserve. I know it is hard but prayers are going up to Heaven for you.